OK, So I am a bit late getting started on this experiment I would like to do with a blog, but not so late I can’t catch up. On Tuesday 17, 2008 I found out I was going to be a dad! I will explain that in more detail soon enough. I want to use this blog as record of my days through this experience. I am going to be a first time Dad, and I am extremely nervous. I am also a bit younger. Don’t let that fool you we were trying to have this happen. I would divulge my personal information however I want to stay anonymous, for the obvious reason, no one knows yet! So I will do my best to let you into my life and my experience throughout what should be this interesting time that is pregnancy.
So where it began? I guess you could say it started with the conception. Well it was a whole lot easier than expected. My wife and I had discussed going off any contraception, but really didn’t have a full hearted plan on actually “Trying”. Our friends of ours seem as though they have given up their lives and devoted it to the cause: HAVING A BABY!!!! We felt that nature should take its course and if it happens it happens. We did make an effort to have sex more often but it wasn’t always a scheduled event. I really feel this made for a much more enjoyable sex life. It didn’t feel forced and scheduled or forced sex I think could make the whole experience seem flawed. I mean we had great passionate sex and the result was one that I am hoping is one of joy. I see so many of my friends trying to conceive and, it seems like the passion is slowly being sucked out of their life. Like I said before it seems as though they devote their lives to “The Cause” and not to each other. So in that aspect I am glad how it happened. I just never expected it to happen so soon. It all seems too easy.
My wife, and lets call her Cindy, started noticing things immediately. You have to remember though not all women get the same warning signs then others. Ours actually was a hodge podge of typical and non typical. The typical signs would be moodiness, tiredness, swollen breast, and I am not sure this is typical but my wife’s acne cleared up. I thought that one was interesting. Something not so typical is how our animals started reacting. We have several cats and a couple of dogs. The night after it happened our eldest cat and leader of all animals in the house, jumped up on the bed and laid right on Cindy’s lap. Of course the cat lies with us, but not like this. He is never to be seen at night and he typically curls up next to you, not on you. Cindy just looked at me and said “I bet you we are pregnant”. That was the other weird thing, she knew. She kept saying that it feels different and that she just had the feeling she was.
Look people I don’t really believe in any one organized religion, I don’t really put too much behind fate, but I will say there were some odd things that I can’t explain. Call it god, call it fate, but whatever it was. I think it gave us signs. Our animals all became very calm and cuddly with Cindy. The oddest of all the happenings was at a Subway. We picked up a quick lunch on our way to a party at a Subway. We were all by ourselves. Mind you once again, I am younger than most expecting fathers, and no I don’t look old either, but for some reason the cashier made it a point to say “Happy Father’s Day”. I walked back to the table where my wife was sitting. She knew from my face I was perplexed. When she inquired, I explained that I just got a happy father’s day. It was father’s day, and it could have been a simple mistake on the girl’s part, but it seemed so perfect that it just couldn’t have been a mistake. We have now coined that girl as the Subway psychic.
I believe that brings me up to the test. We celebrated father’s day with our fathers, the next day. We do so because of personal reasons. Maybe at some point I can divulge my true identity, and give better insight into details. So because it was our make shift father’s day I thought it might be fun to get an early warning pregnancy test. Cindy was many days out from her expected period, but we thought it might make for a good story. She took the test and needless to say it was negative, but for some odd reason I just didn’t believe it. So we let the situation simmer for a day. When we discussed our feelings later, we both had the same wishy washy feeling about the test.
While watching one of our devoted shows, and you may figure out which one, it had a part where a mother who was trying to get pregnant found her test later with a very hint of a second line, and then tested again to make sure. For those of you who are not familiar one line = not pregnant, two lines = pregnant. The whole concept was like it was speaking to me. As I was getting ready to go to the bathroom, I saw the test sticking out of can like Excalibur out of the rock. “Only the true of heart may pull the sword”, echoed in my head. I grabbed it, and yes this is disgusting, but I had to know. I pulled it back out of the wrapper it was stuffed in, and there it was the faintest of lines. A sign that will change my life forever. Even better then that I became maybe one of the first men in history to tell his wife “We are Pregnant”. You would think I might have something clever to say, or be romantic about it. I did neither; I broke open the bathroom door and just shot a look at my wife. She saw the test and my face, and I saw her face just glow. I was able to get out “there is a line”. I am so suave sometimes. It didn’t matter, we both embraced each other, and some tears were shed and then the sudden and to the point, holy crap moment hit ‘I am going to be a dad’!
June 18, 2008:
I think right now the surprise is so new and still fresh in our heads. I am just filled with so many questions. How long do we wait till we tell people? How do I keep it a secret? We are both wine lovers and people are going to notice if Cindy is not enjoying her wine. I also decided to limit my alcohol consumption at least around Cindy, that way she does not feel pressured. I however can have a drink and look normal, but how does Cindy fool people?
I am not sure this is what most people do, but we ran right out and bought the books. For those who know the books are a necessity. I say that sarcastically. They all to me say the same thing over and over again, especially ones that are for fathers. I did find one that was funny as informative, and was a small inspiration for writing this blog. Cindy found several including one that has recipes for mocktail cocktails. I will have to actually provide the name of that book some time, we have already made one from it, and it was very tasty.
That brings me up to date. So last night was the books and we spent about two hours engulfed in reading them. I have noticed that the moodiness has become already scarily unpredictable. My goal is to write something brief every day up to and maybe after the delivery. It depend how inspired I am. The post will all probably be a bit late and talk about the previous day. So let the games begin!
Daddy 2B 